It's SUPPOSED to Hurt! Volume I: Coming Out on Top ("It's SUPPOSED to Hurt!" Book 1)

Fiction, essays, and observations about the art of discipline, from Cassandra (Sandy) Park, New York City's number one specialist on what bad boys and girls really need. Ms. Cassandra, a writer who's been in the kink community for over 25 years, talks about her experience of moving from being exclusively a bottom to eventually owning her "inner sadist" and relishing her domme side.

"I’ve always played hard, and I’ve used a lot of what has pushed my buttons as a bottom in my own topping scenes. But I kept wondering if I was “just” a service domme, just doing it because it was what would please someone else, rather than pleasing myself.

“Over time, I began to see and accept my role as a domme. Now I feel a thrill within me to be able to control a scene, the knowledge that if I ask a sub to do something, he probably will, and if I ask a sub to take what I’m about to give him, he probably will. I like being a little ‘cruel to be kind.’ ... I watch the suffering of the sub and I get pleasure out of it. I want to see how much he can take.”

This eBook is a fully revised version of the 2010 print publication, with new stories, new essays, and several guest blogs from bottoms who have had the pleasure of playing with Ms. Cassandra.