Notes of a heretic

Found in an old handwritten notebook these eight different notes were composed into a short story about the past and present life of a teenager who is neither with himself in pure nor with his sexuality. The author gingerly took care that none of the notes has been changed during the process of putting them together. Each of them came from a different creative period of writing. Which mystery surrounds the teenager, who is on the loose in the barn at night? What dark secret has happened in the monastery during his younger years? Will he be able to escape from his fate?