I GET IT ! I FINALLY GET IT !!

Two sayings, I do not know the origin of, but they are apropos. "Never fall in love with a narcissist. You will live a very lonely life." "If I knew then what I know now". Who knows? Who really cares? The 21st century has been one wake-up call for me. In general my life could best be described as a roller coaster ride. Like all great thrill seeking rides there are always highs and lows, extreme exhilaration and abject terror. I have played major and minor parts in this play called "Highway to Heaven". I have had the role of daughter, niece, sister, best friend, lover, mother, grandmother, teacher, sales coordinator. The most challenging I left until last. I was a wife married to an alcoholic for 40 years. I am a divorcee for 6 years and I am still a cancer warrior after 14 years, breast cancer metastasized in the bones. There is always a straw. "The straw that broke the camel's back". It takes guts to see the writing on the wall. But how could I have been blind sided. I have been courted by 'Death' three times in 5 years. This was my 'last kick at the can'. I took a year to track back the people and events and circumstances that got me in the mess I chose to wallow in. It's rewarding to have this last chance 'to clean house'. I have finally found the true meaning of freedom. If this real story can be of any help to anyone then I will have put the gift of more time to good use. I can honestly say I'm ready! In the end, at the end, the only most important thing is that one likes oneself.